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8/15/10

Mid-Life Crisis

Lillie might be having a mid-life crisis.

In the past few months, she has become more assertive to her nemesis Oscar and demanding of my affection.
Her favorite thing lately is to drape on the back of my chair like a vulture. A purring black fur pillow.


I'm having my own mid-lifer right now. After eleven and a half years, I need to look for a job.

There's nothing like a job search to make me feel like the most incompetent person in the solar system. I know a very little about a lot of things and I'm afraid I'm not very good at any of them. At least that's what it feels like.

Except for a very brief period of about four months, my entire work history has been with Mom and Pop enterprises. I am not a corporate "culture" kinda gal. (Am I yogurt?!) Even though I am a rule follower, there seems to be an abundance of rules just for the sake of having rules. Common sense could dispense with most of them.

And oh lord, the jargon. "I'll reach out to them." WTH. I ALWAYS picture someone reaching their arms out and it makes me laugh. It's so silly. Why can't you just say you're going to call them?
Same with "ping". "Sure, I'll ping them this morning." Isn't that the same as "reaching out" to them?!

So yeah it's kind of apparent I'm not cut out to raise through the ranks of Citi Bank or some such.

Last night I met with one of the kindly Gals who is a life coach. She's given me homework and a new resume format - both of which I am avoiding right now. I did go to the job search site she suggested.

Despair is lurking just around my solar plexus.

5 comments:

  1. Awww... Except for the part of looking for a job, I am so there with the rest of it! heh. Hang in there! The only advice I would give is to perhaps try searching outside the normal job box. Is there something you would love to do? Can you volunteer in that field for awhile first to gain experience? Is there a type of job you've not thought of yet? Or maybe one you've dismissed as doable because it wouldn't bring in enough money? God has a way of making up the difference, especially (especially!) if we're in the exact workplace He wanted us to find. He can handle and tweak some details. Just some thoughts..... Debra

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  2. Debra ~ those are some of the same questions she asked me. I enjoy helping people - not in a nursing sort of way, but in an organize things, design things (like business cards) kind of way.
    And I like being needed.
    I'm trying really hard not to freak out, to look at this as an opportunity, not a punishment (where I often go).

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  3. Hey Kim.
    It seems like life is all about change and challenges. I have been thinking about a second part time job. Just thinking at this point:-) Best of luck in your search, let us know how it goes!
    Kathiey:-)

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  4. Hey Kim, how is the job search going??

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  5. PING. I detest the conversational use of that word with all of my being. My husband uses it loosely and lightly and it kind of makes me want to leave him. So I'm with you there.

    Good luck with the search. You'll know it when you see it.

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